Stuart to Edith
Jan. 4 1918
Best of Women,
I must write a few lines this morning, I feel that you more than want them, and I hope they will be of some use to you; this sounds very conceited, I know (I wonder if it is so).
I think I do not quite understand what you wished to tell me, for I cannot believe exactly what you wrote. You drew a bad picture, Belovéd, but what I feel about it is this. You were tempted and you mistook the temptation for the sin; you felt that the suggestions to evil were the evil itself. I have felt that same thing many, many times, especially when I was fighting particularly hard against the evil which was my chief fault; evil suggestions would come and I got very downhearted.
But temptation is not sin, for was not Jesus tempted?
Again, I believe those who have the greatest temptations and conquer are those who make the best men and women; they may fall more often than those who endure less, but they are all the stronger and hardier for their struggle, they bear the honourable scars of a soldier.
This is very much what you once called “preachy stuff” and I fear I am sometimes inclined that way, but I would not have written this at all if I had not thought and hoped it would be of some use. You could say it all to yourself I know, but to have someone else say it makes a lot of difference.
Now for a little while, Goodbye. You are still and always will be I hope the Best of Women to me, you are my Great White Queen and I wish I could do more for your to show you how very precious you are to me and how far above me you seem, but, Dearest, Belovéd, Sweetheart, I will now say that we will be one and the same and we will go higher and higher till everything is Perfect, Home, Love, Character, everything.
This is for this morning, so I must not, as I have little time, say a long Goodbye, but just God be with you and keep you till I see you to night.
(c) DearestBeloved 2011
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