2 January 1918 Stuard to Edith - Letter #60

Stuart to Edith
Jan. 2 1917
My Belovéd,
Although it is getting late, I very much want to write something to you to-night.
I wish I could find words to express all you have done for and are to me, that I could tell in convincing words that to me you are the Best, the most lovable, the Noblest of Women. I look round at other young women I know and there are few, at the moment I can think of none in the same street. I wish too I could make you feel all the happiness, joy and sunshine you have brought into my life.
Dearest, whatever may be my desserts, I am sure I have got the Best Woman. I wish the man you had got was the Best man; but, Sweetheart he isn’t, and he knows it, but he tries very hard, he wants very much to be somewhere like as good his Woman is, so that they may go on together hand in hand.
I am afraid that at the best I am only a rough diamond, the majority would not say that; I often feel I am not a fit mate for you, that I am too far down, how I wish I were the Man that you and a few other picture me.
Dearest, don’t let me hurt you; I was very much afraid I did to-night when I seemed to doubt your word, and again when I spoke about you telling me things. But I did not doubt you; Dearest, you know that is so, don’t you? You know that I trust you implicitly, all the way, because I know you are as true as steel all the way through.
And again when expressing your feelings, I know you can’t easily; they seem too sacred to speak about, we hesitated in the past because of ridicule being thrown at what was to us almost holy and the habit sticks. But Belovéd, we shall have heart-to-heart talks one day, when Goodbye will not be very frequent, when we shall have our own little home.
I have nearly been to sleep several times over this, so please excuse all defects, but I wanted to make you feel that you are to me the Best, and Noblest Woman in the World and that you have done so much for us.
Goodbye, Belovéd, I expect you are to bed now. I picture you in bed, let me kiss you goodnight and think of the days when we can sleep in one another’s arms, the days when we shall come to the full realization of the wonderful love which has been given to us.
Goodbye, Belovéd, Goodbye, Best of Women, Goodbye, Goodbye.

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