Stuart to Edith
Nov. 20 1917
My Best Belovéd,
It must be quite short this morning and before I begin what I “drafted” I must just say that you do not hurt me as you suppose, because I know that you love me, and anything which might hurt is simply forgotten in that overwhelming knowledge.
Now that I have done as I proposed and made a preliminary draft, I hope you will find this note a good deal better than some I have scribbled to you without giving them the thought and care which I ought to have done. Perhaps some have hurt because of the undeveloped thoughts or at least put crudely, but I will try to think first and write afterward, and so possibly save you the pain you know I would save you if I could.
I have been thinking again about the future, not only ours, but also my own and I have been trying to see what I ought to do. I think that after all I shall have to make every effort to be ordained; it seems to me to be the thing I ought to do; and what I feel I could do best is the work of some country district or may be in the slums, where one would not enter into the controversies so often met in locons, for which I am not capable, but where one could teach the simple truths of Christianity.
One thing, however, is not quite clear to me and I hope I shall not hurt you by asking a plain question. Are you with me in this? are you drawn to such work as I feel myself drawn, and do you think you could partner me in it. This is very important to me, but one which you perhaps think I ought to be able to answer myself, but I don’t know you yet; there are many depths I have not probed, but which no doubt I shall learn of later, as I realize more of the beauty and strength of your character and love.
(c) DearestBeloved 2009
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