Stuart to Edith
Nov. 23 1917
Sweetheart,
Did it hurt you? you ask. Not one little bit. For on this subject my thoughts are as your thoughts.
Let me take the first part of your note first. What you thought I said I did say but I think I said it verbally one evening when you came to see me when I was laid up. Since then I have thought a good deal more about things. My earlier thoughts were all based on the idea that I should be single. I never imagined that I should meet any one who would care for me as you do, or for whom I should feel such love as I do for you, and these facts rather alter the outlook. I should not hesitate now, I think.
It is kind of you to say I must not let you influence me, but that I cannot obey; I do not think I speak too strongly when I say you always influence me, and as I have said before, for good. I will give you an example of what I mean. In the past before I knew you and before we found each other, I was often troubled with thoughts of which I was much ashamed, they were bad and yet try as I would, they returned periodically. I don’t think they ever come now; when I fear they are about to, I just think of you and there is no room for anything else. I might give you other examples which would all show the same thing, that you have lifted me higher than I was before, that you have helped.
I wanted to write a lot more, there is so much to-day of which I could write, but time has gone and even now I am afraid I shall be late; so goodbye, Belovéd, my Dearest and Best, we are yet another day nearer to the time to which we look forward; I am, however, looking forward now to Christmas and the holidays, when I hope we shall have some happy times; perhaps as the time gets nearer, we can plan something, but now goodbye, tell me all that you think as I will try to tell you what I think, and then perhaps we shall get nearer that ideal we look for.
I want to be with you, but just think of me and remember I want to hug you as you read this, and that as the days go by, I love you more and more.
Goodbye, Sweetheart, goodbye.
(c) DearestBeloved 2009
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